Politics

Maybe its something that I was born with, maybe it was a power within that I have yet to tap into but my feeling was right, this month has been a bad month. Mostly little things that come together to fuck you over like usual. But hey at least another month is about to begin soon, it almost feels like another bright day is about to begin. Truthfully I'm mostly saddened by the fact that summer is still here lol. I love the cold weather, and I love weather where there is a slight hint of warmth but and nice cool breeze to accompany it in return. I have to say, college is truthfully a way to learn things about this country in general. So far its only been a month, but I've learned things about the politics in this country that have truly pissed me off. Recently, in the news I read that the U.S. is letting terrorists in Guantanamo Bay acquire lawyers for their cases. What the FUCK? And meanwhile we are arresting and kicking out illegal immigrants that are here to work. That's also another tricky situation, I was supporting kicking out the bad illegals, the ones that do damage to our society, the ones that gang bang and have no right to fuck up our country as they have to theirs. But that's not what we are doing, we are eliminated the bulk of the work force in this country instead. True they are illegals, but that's what America was built on, we are all immigrants, the italians, the asians, the europeans, back in the day all came to this country to work and get better lives, and its because we worked together that our country is so powerful and great. And then people talk about illegals feeding off the government when I bet that 30 percent of Americans that collect welfare just do it because they dont' want to work. What we need to do is have a background check for every illegal here, if that background check provides information like the fact that they are here to work, or they have no criminal background then why shouldn't they stay? If they are criminals then kick them the fuck out of our country we don't need them, we don't need those type of people here anymore. And why does the process take so long? For people who are legit and want to work why does it take so long to process them?
There are so many different types of issues that I have been so interested in and until now I haven't been exactly clear on. I keep thinking, one day my generation is going to take over responsibility, and I pray to God that someone out there is learning that the way we are operating this country right now is not the way we need to go. Our Dollar value is dropping every year, something needs to be done, and I wish I was important enough that the president or someone in congress would be able to care about what I talk about, I just wish the rest of the country would come to agreement because that's what is going on. So many people agree and disagree and nothing is getting done. We are more worried about situation in other countries when we have our own problems to deal with, we need to deal with us, spend that money on us, those other countries don't want us there in the first place. I can't say I'm fully democrat or fully republican, because both parties in my opinion are bullshit, so I stay moderate, because I like ideas from both. And to tell you the truth our candidates for presidents are disappointing. Hilary still wants to be in Iraq, Obama has barely any experience, Giuliani I haven't heard a peep from him and all he does is dis Hilary, I was hoping Al Gore would have been president but he is a hypocrite, talking about saving the Earth when he himself flew over 50 times in a jet plane across the world to do his documentary, so much for air travel being the top polluter Gore, not to mention the fact he owns a chevy blazer that his chaffeur drives him around with. I just hope that somebody shows some strength during the next elections, I just hope that this country does better next year, because right now Bush isn't our only problem, its everyone in politics.

A moment of insanity

I feel something so close to me right now...It is a prescence I haven't felt for months. A prescence of darkness...It feels as if something is guiding me through this night even though my mind is fast asleep. My thoughts are racing as they never have before, the night is shifting so quickly inside my head and the prescence keeps pushing its way inside me. It is so heavy, it feels as if my heart is being grabbed and my shirt is being tugged and tugged, the eerie thoughts of fowl memories brings my head and down and opens up a world in which I've kept shut for many months now...I can't hold it any longer...

It was so many months ago, it feels as if years have gone by, I did it and I did not understand why I did what I had done. To this day I still do not believe why it felt right at the moment, how could I possibly have done this so carelessly? My mind was going in circles not focusing at any moment, not taking the rest of my body into mind.

I remember that night that I had told her, she already expected it...I heard her heart break at the other end of the phone, I listened to her cry as she has never cried ever in front of me...I swear to you that every tear that dropped down her cheek was felt through me...She was so in love with me...and I broke her...The very girl I've dreamnt about since I was old enough to know what a girlfriend was...The same girl who I saved...The same girl who saved me...I felt her words shatter my sould piece by piece, the way she cried stroke a song of agony inside my heart that can still be heard today within me...That night we tore each other apart even though we never realized it...That night I felt the same prescence near me that I do now...but I ask myself why do I feel it again, why does it return to haunt my very existence ever again? It feels as if it is a warning... I feel like a warning has been given to me...I am trembling because of this prescence that I feel but do not understand nor can I see...After that night I realized that karma would come to get me eventually...Is this prescence warning me that soon I will pay? ........................I feel very bad about this month.............I hope I am just crazy.