It feels almost criminal to leave my blog behind for so long. It seems as though for the past few months I've had nothing to say or nothing to write about. But there is always something deep inside me that wished I had something to write my thoughts out on, and I had almost forgot that I could do so right here, in this very web page.
What can I say about last year? I don't think there was one thing that hadn't changed last year...
I started my life with my new wife, the beginning started out very rocky, of course it had to do with her parents divorcing right when I had come in to bring joy into our lives, the other part that brings joy to her had been taken away. The next few months were met with problems, to the point where my visit would have been short lived, but I stayed the course, hoping that someone could help us.
Time to time I do still feel hurt about the whole situation, its like a lingering headache that never goes away. Sometimes I feel nervous that it might happen again, and at that point I don't think I could go through it again. I'd rather the child live with one parent then in a house of disasters.
I hope that Zulen and I are good parents, I hope that regardless of its a boy or girl that I can teach it something about the good and bad of life, to look at things from a different perspective then looking at it from just one angle. There is so much more to life than what is just in front of us.
Unfortunately my baby lost her job this month, a great way to start the new year. We went from being comfortable to having to worry about what we are going to do next. Maybe God thought we got too comfortable. But I warned her about this every day, things like this can happen at any time, that is why one must always be prepared when life wakes you up out of no where. It happens to me all the time, which is why I guess I am so cautious when it comes to spending too much money.
Unfortunately for now I have to go to work, hopefully I will remember to finish my thoughts later :)
