Path of Pieces

Slipping away so quickly, everything is. The time of innocence slipping away so gracefully yet quickly out of this phase of life. Imagination once carried the happiness of this one being, their minds so naïve about everything in this world. Now this being must look deeper within the depths of their soul, picking out the scraps of forgotten dreams, forgotten plans, and wishes. A path so heavily guarded by life is present; the only way to break through is to pass the obstacles. The being extends their hand, pleading for help, possibly a miracle, and an easy way through this mess that life has created. This path is important, without a path the being is lost within them, a situation none want to be in.
During the journey the being notices a door, the first of many, so many to go. The door gives the being hope and nourishment to move on, it realizes that it must carry on to reach the end of this path. Another door appears, and here another path lies ahead. This path is broken up, shattered into a million pieces, and the being must put them back together to move on. So here it says, gently putting these pieces together, hoping that it doesn’t put the wrong ones together. Each wrong combination means more time to solve it, and time is so short.
The being realizes it has made the wrong combination, which it sure will be the first of many. It panics but holds in the emotions. Time keeps going, the being stops to look around, it realizes that there is so much left to put together, still so many pieces left…
To Be Continued….When more pieces are combined…

oooo tyte as hell 

T.G.I.F.

Wow another Friday ppl. Just 10 more days of summer school (not including the weekend). I did really good on my test today, I GOT A 94 :) Of course I took that test twice, I wanted to retake it because the first outcome was bullshit and cock pulling so I took it again. And there we go...lol

haha, I recently changed my hairstyle for the first time in like, 2 years (no joke) I've gotten many compliments, It's no longer slicked back, it's more of a "just out of the shower look" lol. Extremely hard to explain but it looks pretty cool to me.
Things are changing right now, it's kind of interesting to see what else will change, I'm hoping that everything will work out for me in the long run...
Speaking of which, I found an article on my favorite video game website, and in it, it described the path and the skills needed to become a video game designer!!! I was like "damn" it was like the article was talking to me. *I could have sworn it was* LOL.
So that's defintely something I looked into, I haven't finished reading it, but I know I will soon.

To Be Continued...

Yet aNother PoSt

Well here we go again, another issue arises with my mom. I pretty much posted what I wanted to say here, on my sisters comment section LMAO.
Its always scary to hear someone talk about taking their own lives. It's even worse to hear that it might even be your fault, if not you being part of the issue. At least that's the story I heard from my aunt with that dramatic call she gave me about 3 or 4 days ago when she was calling about my mother. my aunt made it seem like it was all our faults, just for not talking to her, when it ended up being so much more than that.
I try, I try so hard sometimes to write a letter to my mom, to call her, to keep up the conversation when she talks about absolutely nothing that makes sense. But I have trouble getting things finished, which is partly from my ADD I believe...It's start to trouble me actually, I'm trying so hard to complete any little thing, or focus on something, but I always seem to get distracted...I haven't been diagnosed with ADD yet, but what the hell else could it be? I've noticed that it's actually getting worse, and I'm starting to get less focused on things. For instance, I've managed to completely distract myself to what this post was supposed to be FOR! lol.

n e wayz, there my mom is suffering, and there are options, bring her back here, hoping that she will accept the fact that she needs to move on concerning my dad, and hoping that she will be able to live by herself. Or I think, getting her another room in Bolivia, where I would think she would have to do the same...So it's confusing to me, I know she wants to see us, I know that I want to see her especially, but God forbid I see her like she was 5 years ago. I don't want to meet that same person, I want to help her get treated, and help her cope with this, instead of fighting or worrying what type of mood she will be in. I've had enough of that for my whole life, and my God was I lucky to have the sisters and father that I had to help me.
Well I hope she decides to make herself better, admit she has a problem, and fix it. No matter where she is. I only hope....

Just random philosophy..

We all have that side of us, that side of us that we only know. Its so hard to imagine that some people don’t act the way they do normally. When you meet someone, you don’t automatically know who they are. But each one of us has a background, maybe a dark history, maybe not. Its so amazing to believe that everyone you talk to doesn’t show this so quickly. What are other people that I know, like? What are their secrets? What does their history consist of?
There is that side, the one hiding from the ones you don’t know, the side that is dying to come out, but holds back. It is our wish to have that side shared with freely with the person we love, the person we will share our lives with forever.
It makes me wonder so much sometimes, what might this person be hiding?
Wow, just random philosophy…

Why, GIT R DONE!

"I asked Jesus how much he loved me, "This Much" he said. And he stretched his arms out and died"
(Just a quote I found pretty tyte)

So here I am now, 17 yrs old. and counting. July has been a slow month so far, at least for me. But I had a great B-day weekend, I think I needed that weekend to rejuvenate myself, to have fun again.
I'm in Summer school now, :( BUMMER! 5 hrs of hell, not to mention an extra hour to and from school because of the long bus ride...BLAH. But hey, almost everyone on my bus ride there are my friends so that good!
I've been trying hard, and I'm not going to do this class over again, FUCKING NEVER! So far I"m doing great, and I know that it'll will keep up till the end of this dreaded hell, LOL.

SOOOOOOOOOOO, This summer seems to be having ups and downs (like usual). But of course downs always have solutions, Thank God*. Can't wait to go to Florida next month!!! yay!!! a real vacation!!!! lol. And of course after my lovely vacation, I have my senior year to complete, which will probably be with night school :( but hey, I know I can do it. I just need a car my permit or my license especially, a job, it will be an action packed year that's for sure...I don't really know what to expect from next year, and to think that this will be my last year legally as a teenager, WOW. Means no more tax returns for my dad from me! LOL

Before I go I want to thank everybody and your fucking awesome presents this year!!! Talk about nice clothing and accessories!! lol. My dad also helped me get a CD-RW Drive for my computer, and it's a beautiful thing indeed!