December has a sense of humor

Wow I really think December has always been a changing month for me, lol. So far its been like what, one week into December and many things have changed, man, times change so quickly...

Recently, I broke up with Zulen, in case anybody cared, lol. More than a year and more and more things come up, I guess as you get deeper into a relationship you also think deeper about things...
You know it really kills me inside to hear someone crying, but then you think, it was for a good reason, I wasn't like any other guy who justs leaves without thinking about the other person's feelings first. We are all humans in this life, we deserve to have our emotions heard and cared for by others, whether you be a playa or not...
It feels weird to be single again, you see everyone around you kissing and shit, then you think "wow, I had that not too long ago". Then of course the whole world seems to know about it. I told my friend Eric, and God only knows who he told and eventually by 6th period everyone knew, lol. I mean I used to speak highly of her for so long, so I guess it amazes them that "Jose" is free, lol. Who the hell knows what else is going to happen, there was already more shit that happened but that isn't the point of the post lol, as long as I stay focused on what my main goal is I don't care. Fucking saving, passing this hell hole, I think I've grown into a habit of working, cuz now when I'm off, I have nothing to do and I'm bored as hell, lmao.
Damn taxes took out alot of taxes of my next paycheck, I was about to make 550 smackers, but it got reduced to 445, lmao, how cruel tax is when you are single, blah.
But I already opened my savings account, I'm gonna save 100 every paycheck, see how that goes, lol, cuz now I got an ATM card!
I get my paycheck this Friday, so hopefully I can see you skika, so I can invite you somewhere, cuz I'm also off Friday!! yaaaay! And V is coming soon also! And this friggin snow is awesome, another 5-7 inches is expected tomorrow night, I already had a snow day yesterday, so lets go for 2 lol.
I just really can't wait until this month is over, this year needs to be over, I need to start fresh, get rid of 2005 damages, blah. I can't wait, or maybe I can, who knows.
I'm not sure if I told my sisters yet, but dad had to get stitches 2 weeks ago, he cut his finger working :( And recently the insurance rejected covering for Ayde's pregnancy, :( fucking hell, and we still had hopes. I swear my dad does not deserve this stress, things just keep piling on top of him, and if its not one thing it another.
But well I'm gonna go chill out now, see what else there is to do, lol. blog later!