There were days when I thought that my mom did not exist. Days when people used to make fun of her and I had no intention of defending her. As young as I was, I still remember the days that you were yourself. The days I used to be sick, or me and you would be alone by ourselves. On this mother's day mom, I remember those times that I used to insult you, the days I used to think that you weren't there. The days that I did not understand what your mind had done to the beauty that is inside you. You are beautiful outside, but you had this kindness inside you that you used to bring out on all your good days. Its those days that hurt the most in my opinion, the days that you would try to talk to me, or say that you loved me and I would ignore you or push you away. Those days are over, and I hear you on the phone now, as humble as ever. I miss giving you a hug, I hate the fact that you missed important years of my life. But it has given us time to grow mom, for our thoughts and memories to all combine and explain what type of person you truly are. You told us so many things that were true even now, and we never listened. If I could only go back in time and apoligize for all those times that I pushed you away when I really needed you. You are far away now, but just knowing that you are safe and still thinking about us is what keeps me hoping that one day you can come back with us. Somehow I think things will be different this time around... Thank you for not forgetting about us mom, thank you for writing all those wonderful words that you have sent to us constantly, I hope to see you again soon, so you can see that I am eating :)