but....NO?

I tried to write again, but I find myself writing about the same things over and over again. I feel like my mind is a broken record, always reminding itself of things that confuse me, always coming back to the same thought. It feels as if I'll always be confused my whole life, it feels as if my mind enjoys repeating itself constantly.
Blah is all I have to say, maybe I've grown bored of my own thought...That's certainly pretty akward, and kind of scary...

*sigh, my dad just told me to cut off the damn modem, so I'm using the computer upstairs which has a different connection. Bloody hell...my baby isn't online, FUCK. I'm glad I helped relieve some of your questions baby. Yea it seems like I won't see you for so long after that month you move. Its known that so much can change in one day, imagine 3 years. I can't wait to see what happens until you come back.
You know.........I've even taken into consideration about what you asked me about my dad letting you stay here. Like I said baby, if you really, really, really wanted to stay with me, I could seriously ask him. There is this gut feeling in me that tells me he'll say yes, I know him, he's not the type of person to say no to helping a person out, even his own son. But of course that's just a thought, hehehe. God I would love for you to stay with me, that seems like such a nice dream for me, but it also takes alot of thought. But if you ever need somewhere to stay, you know who to ask baby.
Well I'm feeling a lil hyper, I'm actually finishing a flowchart for school, I feel like writing "LICK MY SACK BITCH" on the title. I don't like my teacher at all, she's threatning to kick me out of class and putting cheating on my "Permanent Record"LOL LOL. For what??? for a fucking elective? How the hell can you possibly cheat on a damn computer assignment? Plus the person who was cheating wasn't me, it was this fucking fagget in my group who decided to use someone elses flowchart. That prick got me in serious shit, I feel like kicking his ass* MUHAHAHA, maybe I should, I haven't had a fight in a while...It would be good excersise, even if he kicks my ass, pain goes away. Wow, I'm violent, lol...MONKEY TESTICLES? oh sorry that was random... Damn it baby, I was hoping to catch you online but I guess not :( BLAH, wow I need to stop drinking this Mountain Dew, especially since it's like almost 1 am. Well I'm off to finish this bull caca of an assignment, so peace out...I LOVE YOU MI AMOR!