Bitches LOL

early early early ain't it? well not that early but still early enough for me to have mini bags under my eyes, lol. I had another idea for a story last night, but I know I have to start dedicating my time to HEART instead.
God how I wish I could have a MP3 player, or for that a matter a cd burner in my computer. I could listen to all these songs that I enjoy on my computer everywhere. I have about more then a Gigabyte of music, which is a few hundred songs I think.

N E wayz, a few things on my mind right now, it's May, which means it's almost summer, which means the apocalypse is about to start LOL. Then I"m thinking about my "best friend", he was the one who I was going to rely on in getting our video game system idea started. And here he goes, talking bad about me behind my back, and trying to get my girlfriend with another guy. I really don't understand him, he was never this much of a prick. He was the first friend I had in Springfield, and now I don't even know what to think, I'm wondering if what he said was something he always thought about me.
So what the hell am I going to do now, I wanted to actually begin this idea of a video game system, but I can't do it alone. And now I can't see my other best friend Jorge anymore, his dad seems to have built a wall over him. *sigh, things are a little rocky, then again May has never been good to me, May is truly Gay.
I was going to look forward to the concert, but things came up, but thankfully my dad is going to New York next week no matter what. He's about to quit his job also, bunch of low life bastards that work there and no one else.
Sometimes I wish I could fast forward my life, skip so many situations, see what happens in the future. But oh well, I can't and never will be able to fast forward my life, sometimes it seems that life passes by so slow, but then you notice that in reality, it's going by so damn fast.

I want to dream about something again, I haven't really dreamed about anything lately. One of the only dreams I remember from not too long ago was a scary one.
I remember not being able to open my eyes completely, everything was blurry, I was unable to move, and all I heard were people calling my names, it was my dad and I think my sisters and zulen.
Scary thing is, my dad has had a couple of the same dreams about me. Either I was in an accident or something else. Then of course my aunt has had some strange dreams, but she hasn't told us what they were yet.

*sigh, N E wayz, Vanessa come back to VA!!! Notice how inviting VA is to you, VanessA VirginiA, NO???! LOL n e wayz, that's some good news, I wish everybody I missed could be near me, but i know that could never happen unfortunately, which sucks monkey nuts.

Well I'm going to call the other sister that I miss dearly, hopefully we can chill today! peace out bitches, J/k