Know Thyself

It's all laid out in the table in front of me. The nights of sorrow, the nights of tears and agony, days and days of deciding and playing a game of tug and war with a heart so weak and a mind so strong. It feels so right and feels so confusing to bring these words to the world. I thought I saw a withered building, I thought we were gone forever, but then I opened my heart to reveal a palace, made out of gold, that shows how strong we both are. That's when it feels so sure, but then my mind comes into the act as if it was being blockaded and with a force of a million men it storms into my thoughts. I think of the rivers of tears you have endured from the likes of me, it was me who placed those needles in your heart, it was me who forged the sword that is stuck ever so deeply inside your hope. I'm terrified that one day it will all be over for good. What then? What will become of me? I will be without a cause once again, I will be the person I've never wanted to be, I will be that boy that is buried inside me for the pain that he has caused me.

I admire your mind, I admire the fact that you will be able to comprehend such vast words from the heart. Just please remember that I am who I am, I am the heart you love, the soul you have taken. True the future is uncertain, but destiny is what holds the world together, life can give us all the obstacles, but if we are meant to be together we will. I hope you never walk away like I have so carelessly. So much to say, such little words to tell them with, but three words say it all I love you, and you know that.