The Earth goes round and round millions of times a year. Each second someone is wishing, hoping, praying, thinking, speaking, or even sleeping. All those things circle the Earth as we spin all year not realizing it. No matter how horrible of a day, or how great of day the sun rises and the sun sets. Each day something happens, someone is thinking of the next great thing, someone is having a baby, getting married, getting murdered, having an arguement, and life keeps on going like nothing has happened. So how does one not be selfish? I mean when you are single and you aren't married, are you thinking about your future or are you thinking about what is going to happen now? When you deliver that pizza to an unknown persons door, when you take another mindless customers arguements, when you climb that ladder on the top of the empire state building to just change the lightbulb all the way on the top, are you thinking about you or someone else? When I look at my dad, I look at him and I realize how I am still here in this world, how he never let us down, how sometimes he would work 3 jobs just to support us. No one gave him a helping hand at his worst moments, or maybe his kids did. I look at him and I start wondering how in the hell would I be able to do that if I was in the same situation as he was? Everytime I see him no matter his flaws of spending too much money or buying too many cars, I see this man that sits in front of the computer...He is responsible for me, for giving me support, for loving me and working his ass off for me and all his kids. I start thinking how in the world do I even start to imagine to be responsible for some person's life, to be in charge of how they think, to be responsible of whether or not the world will accept them...That's something you don't think about all the time when you are changing your baby's diaper...
When I got accepted to this college, when I got this job at the same time, and I will have to do everything at the same time and still manage to keep sane, I thought to myself I'm actually doing this, I can actually feel like being my dad, who struggled so hard and sacrificed his own life just to see mine get better...The reason I'm doing this is for myself, and the reason I want this and could do this for myself is because of families like mine, I just hope I can do this...I hope God will listen to my prayers and give me a happy life, whether its like this or not...Life loves to see us fight, to fight for what we believe in, love, strive to be, want, and need.
I can't say I'm not nervous of how I will do in the future, of how my kids will view me, or how happy I will make my wife. To me the only way for myself to be happy is to see everyone around me happy, if I was the only one happy in this world I would have nothing to live for, I couldn't live like that. I'm scared that maybe I will go through with this and it will be for nothing, maybe I won't be as happy as I thought. But at least I can try right? Like I said the world keeps moving, we are a speck in a massive universe, a little speck of a trillion species of animals and working minds, and sometimes it is hard to really be pissed off when you know that a billion other people out there have it worse than you do. But that's why we must worry about our own problems, because in the end all we have is each other.
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The way I see it, there are things we do that are good, and things that are not. I think that as long as you are doing something to improve yourself, your quality of life and your satisfaction with yourself and your achievements, there is no way you can be unhappy in the future.
If you were out there doing drugs and killing people... My guess is you'd be a miserable fool lol. But you're not. Knowing that you want something more, to better yourself, it makes the people who love you happy. So there, you see? How can you not achieve happiness, you said it yourself seeing your family happy makes you happy.
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I have learned that thinking of yourself is important - but it does not always satisfy your soul.
When you do something from the heart for somebody else - it is the most fulfilling feeling in the whole entire world.
Like you said - we are specks in this enourmous universe. If only each person did something that was selfless - I wonder how different things would be.
I am proud of you Mike. I have seen you do so many selfless acts for the family - you truly are one of those giving spirits.
Ambition is a fire that burns inside of you. It must never die out - for if it were too - our reason for going forward - our motivation to strive would vanish.
I believe this is the beginning of good things to come
You get what you put in. The more energy you put into your future the more you will gain for your nest. You are essentially securing your nest now - and you will enjoy the fruits of your labor later.
We all believe in you - you have all of our support.
hi! it's my turn, hehe. :) tgif!
well, it is scary. anytime you embark in something new, its is scary because its unknown. but you have to try your best.
we all try our best to be good parents, to be good wifes, husbands, girlfriends, boyfriends..it doesn't mean we're perfect. but as long as we are trying, that means something.
i remember when i was younger, i would say, "dad what do you want for your birthday?" and he would say "just be a good person and get good grades". now that i'm a parent i know exactly what he's talking about.
when mom and dad came here, they had nothing, started from scratch,and they suffered allot just to get by, to give us food and clothes.
our generation still has it hard because we have to pick up from where they left off, yet we have more opportunities, because we speak better English, etc. our kids will have even more opportunities and so on and so on....who knows maybe one day one of them will run this country! lol
but dad and mom will still be just as successful because they were the first ones to start it all, thanks to what they taught us. they weren't perfect, but in their own way they taught us to be better people.
the way i see it, that is our contribution to the world. just take care of your little space- you, your family and loved ones, and that will carry on to future generations and grow from there!
sorry so long, lol. you'll be fine Mike! learn as much as you can, college isn't only for getting a good job in the future..its also for bettering yourself. you will be surprised at how much more there is out there to learn. and it never stops...even old people continue to learn, because if not, the moment you turn off your mind you might as well just turn yourself off.
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