Sleep...BAAAAAAD

don't you hate it when you can't sleep? shigady I know I do...too much shigadies on my mind right now, I can't seem to close my eyes if it killed me.
I'm looking forward to christmas this saturday, this is the first year ever that my family is going to spend christmas in their own houses :( It's kind of strange to tell you the truth, as my family grows, we seem to grow apart for some reason. I'm used to having everybody in the family at one big place, but all of my cousins are celebrating at their own houses, my brother, my sisters, all of them celebrating at their own houses. Oh well, that doesn't really matter right now, my biggest thoughts are all on my baby of course.
Then I'm thinking about what the hell I'm going to do tomorrow for gel, I seem to have lost it at my babies house and now I don't have anything to tame my crazy ass hair. I'm going to hate tomorrow, that's for sure...
Almost 2 am...blah...I hate not being able to sleep...god I miss you so much baby...those juicy kisses...that la la land you put me in when we kiss...I miss this weekend...mmmm pepsi...oh sorry...
Monday was gay, today was gay, tomorrow will be gayer then today, thursday will be ok, friday will rock ass, saturday will be even better, and then finally sunday...well screw sunday.
*sigh I won't have this spacious basement all to myself anymore soon...I'm actually getting my room built after 6 months of waiting. But I love the basement, it's so private, but I guess it'll be even more private with my room *an actual door*. hehehe you know your always welcome to come over baby hehehe, I'm always alone anyway, no one is ever here in this godforsaken house.
I need a job...target is not hiring anymore...my dad told me I should wait...but I need to make my own money, cuz he won't even buy me a friggin bottle of gel for crying out loud. N E wayz, I'm just typing random thoughts right now, I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about...but it is helping me sleep *:)* all next week I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do...I'm gonna be alone the whole damn week, doing nothing. tomorrow will be the same, and so will thursday. Makes me wonder sometimes why I want to stay home so much. But I guess I've gotten used to being left alone in the house, since June of this year I've been alone 85% of the time in the house. It was different when my sisters were here, but I've gotten used to them being away too.
Uh oh...sheep...jumping over fences in my head...1...2...3...4...5...blah...wolf ate them whole...my modem just reseted again...I'm gonna get a shotgun...brb.............................................................ok got it...*POW POW POW* "fucking modem from hell"...oh sorry...that was uncalled for...N E wayz...I have nothing else to talk about...but I'm still thinking about something...I don't even know what it is...but oh well...I g2g to sleep...err at least try 2...can't wait to get tomorrow over with.