Well after a somewhat crappy intro, I'm back. This site is so much better then Xanga in my opinion so I'm gonna use it like a normal Journal. I talked to my mother today (she lives in Bolivia) I haven't seen her in about 4 years. I guess you could say she's a little mental, but today I actually held a conversation with her. I have never experienced this type of a conversation with my mother, for once in my life I actually talked to her about things that are real. I finally felt like she was listening and responding to everything I had said. She was crying on the phone and all that good stuff, but I knew that she was acting normal. One day I hope to see her normal once again, I hope to visit her and accept her back into my life, as well as the lives of my family.
This year is almost over, I can't believe how fast this year went by. So much shit has happened this year, bad and good. So much has changed since the beginning of this millenium for me and my family. Our lives were so different not too long ago, I don't know how we managed to pull out of it, but we did. It just seems that bad shit seems to happen to us left and right, but I know that every family has shit to deal with so I just let it go. I think that one of the only good things that happened to me this year was Zulen. I love her so much it's not even possible to explain it, who would have imagined that I would have found love so early? So many people have told me that love is almost impossible at my age, that I should'nt confuse love with lust. But what if it was possible? I know that the feelings I have for her are more then lust, even more then love. She is so different from the other girls that I have been with, she is so real, I see it in her eyes. I wonder sometimes about what my family would think if I told them that I was in love. What would they say? For now I'll just wait till they take me seriously, that day will come soon, hopefully.
Today I broke my damn phone, I finally fixed it up with glue but I have to get a replacement for this piece of crap. At least I've saved enough $$$ to get a new one, if not then I would be screwed. N E wayz, I'll catch you guys tomorrow, BUSH OR KERRY???? *WHO WILL WIN???*
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