Well what can I do now? My dad received my grades on the internet, and he wasn't pleased whatsoever. He took away a lot of my favorite games, and even attempted to take my xbox. Sometimes I ask myself if video games are truly the problem of me not doing my work. I try to do my homework, but when it comes down to doing it I get easily distracted. I know I have ADD but that shouldn't stop me from doing my work, as much as I would love to blame it on ADD I know I can do better. Is it because I'm lazy? No motivation? Sometimes I remind myself of a cheap commercial with all these questions but I'm not sure what's my problem. Hear I am typing about it, and I'm not doing it. I know that I hate school, and that I hate doing my work, but I know I must. I know all the material, it's just that I don't do any homework, and that's the only thing that's bringing my grades to hell. I've always wanted my family to be proud of me, but instead I anger them every time I show them my grades. My dad is who I'm most worried about, he's done so much for me and I feel like I've done so little for him, I want to return the favor but what I'm doing now is not working. In my whole life I've never studied for a test or a anything for that matter. I've never been on the honor roll, but I always seem to pass each grade. I'm a junior now, and my grades are crucial if I want to go to college. Even though I know this, I still manage to fuck off and do nothing about it. Somehow I have to pull up my grades, get in the habit of doing my work, and stick to it before this year ends in the crap hole.
Just yesterday some girl went up to me and asked me out, of course I said no because I already have a girlfriend. What really pisses me off is that my "friends" wanted me to leave my girl and go out with this girl that I don't even like. What do we mean when we call people our friends? Or best friends for that matter? Sure I talk to these people, and I enjoy their company, but when it comes to truly helping me in life, they are worth crap. I've always heard that there will only be at least one true friend in our whole lives. My sister for example, she thought she had a true friend. Him and my sister have known each other for more then 7 years, and now that my sister has a kid and she can't go out to party as much, her "best friend" basically disowns her. So I wonder sometimes what it means to be a true friend, or what a true friend is. Is it a person who has helped you no matter what? A person who has known you for so long and knows almost everything about you? Its unbelievable to think that there will only be at least one person in my life who is a true friend. So that means that everyone I have met or anyone that I have talked to is completely meaningless, lol. Well what ever, I'll see ya guys tomorrow, PEACE OUT.
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